Sunday, March 11, 2007
say hello, one dollar.

say hello to my new humble abode.

click here to visit mayday.

this doesn't go to mean that i'm going to permanently shut down soya-sauce, for obvious reasons.

im gonna miss calvin too much and this blog wasn't meant to be disposable from the start. memories, good and bad, are to be kept. so that's how it's going to be.
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Wednesday, March 07, 2007
my yesterdays are all boxed up

i guess it's gonna have to hurt
i guess i'm gonna have to cry
and let go of some things i've loved
to get to the other side
i guess it's gonna break me down
like falling when you're trying to fly
it's sad
but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
starts with goodbye.


"make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, but always try to be kind to each other and to everyone else."
-1 thessalonians 5:15
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
this is the last time

my motivation for blogging today is just wrong. it should never have to be this way. it was just wrong altogether. up until that point, i've never noticed that everything was just dynamically wrong. and it pains to know that things could've been made so much more better. so much more efforts could've been put into it without me having to suffer the humiliation that i did up there today.

i just wna go home.
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Wednesday, February 28, 2007
the art of seduction










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Thursday, February 22, 2007
the summit of beauty and love.

i like chinese new year. yes, it totally sucks when you get over the public holidays and have to go back to school, because you're kinda still in the holiday kinda mood, kinda feeling. but it's nice, it is.

wanna know why? i got home after 3 tiring post-chinese new year school days, tired and hungry. no worries! there's love letters, there's tarts, there's nuts, chips, bak kwa and drinks! i barely unpacked like i usually do, and just flopped down unto the sofa, and dug in. its a nice feeling you know, having come home after three absolutely senseless days, and being able to just dig in to nice goodies.

oh, there was the roomie feeeohna's birthday celebration! we ate! we drank! we talked! we gambled! and i won! EVIL LAUGHTER. hahaha i tell you jansen is totally totally, TOTALLY, cannot make it one thousand percent when it comes to gambling. i think he only won like, once? and it's clearly insufficient for him to recoup his losses. but its kinda funny, and interesting when someone just keeps losing, and losing, and losing, and losing. and losing. we had loads of fun, and i really think we should do it more often. kfc and green tea and pack of cards and card tricks (eh, guys?).

on a different note, though. school is M-A-D. most atrociously disgusting. assignments and assignments and projects and this and that and like everything else in the world. hey like, hello, we need a life? we need to live and breathe and like, sleep? does S-L-E-E-P mean anything to you?

and i got excellent grades for cs105. EEEEExcellent. cmi. cbi. i feel the earth, move, under my feet. i feel the sky tumbling down, tumbling down. big huge bummer lorr. why like that?!

one week break. rest. slack. tv. more tv. game. more gaming. football. more football. no homework, no assignment, no school. less of all that. to begin with, its gaming time - signing off.
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007
will you be my walentine?

minutes ago, i officially declared myself a social retard. seriously.

in a casual chat with fiona the roomie, i realised, to my horror, that tomorrow is valentine's day. the vday the vday the vday. see die, how can i not know that? proves how much of a social moron i have morphed into, in the past few weeks that i have buried myself in school. others in hall are busy delivering flowers (2 to the roomie, no less), and here i am, opening yet another book to complete yet another reading.

no mad rush for gifts, chocolates and sweets this year. the only presents i bothered to get was a convenient purchase of brownies at the stall in school. is that how i've become, my friends? boring emotionless don't-celebrate-vday-anymore creature? forgive me, if that's what you think. really don't know what happened. you know im really a hot-blooded passionate monster inside. ah ha! but now that im reminded that tmr is vday. i shall say my vday greetings here and now.

gmkj: saying 'i love you' barely suffices. our lifelong partnership has gone beyond what i, or any of us, could've imagined. when the road's tough, you girls make it all so much better. when the road's alright, you girls make it a rockin' trip. there's so much that we've done tgt already, but i can think of a million other things to do still. life's never just life when it's with you girls.

fhm: it takes a crane to build a crane. it takes two floors to make a storey. and it takes f+h+m to make days in ntu ah la la la la la la life is wonderful. thanks to you girls, days are filled with more laughter and nights are filled with more smiles. vherewer you are right now, i vould like to say to you, happy walentine's. ah la la la la la la life is wonderful~

to the peeps from ajclique: i think amongst the 5 of us, only feeohna has a certified, chopped stamp valentine. never mind, the rest of us vday with each other. can't wait till the day i see you guys again, and have daidi championships. miss you girls and guy, and i wished we had more chances to meet up than now.

to the peeps from ntuwkwsci: alright we the citizens of the school with probably the longest acronym for a name in ntu, the people who have a hell lot of fun even with the impending deadlines and boring-as-hell lectures. continue having as much fun as we always do, since school is hardly fun so we have to make it fun. happy vday! forget about all the projs! throw them all away! so the profs can't give us all FAIL grades! unity is strength!

to the peeps from church: one week away from church and i miss you guys already! i miss the lunch that i missed on sunday afternoon also, for which i paid for! sians. happy vday! my lunch kaki's i miss you a lot! feel like eons nvr go out for lunch with ur already. sai.

to the sister: happy vday, and pls remember that in the midst of moan-a-lisa-ing about your screwed timetable, you should also be mugging hard for AOE! wait for me to be back over the weekend we train like siao and KILL KILL KILL! (omg i can't believe i actually sound like a gamer. k great.)

in three words: i love you all who are impt in my life! (ok that was not three. )
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
question, tell me what you think abt me.

prof vivian: questions?
me: (sings) tell me what you think abt me.
faiz: i was going to say that!!
we: (laughs)

ok even though this is madness week and it feels like it ought to be next week friday alr, it can be pretty fun. ah, the love hate relationship with the adrenaline push. am sitting in cs10(veryboring)5 lecture now, and am surrounded by fun pple. faiz, my fellow semi-korean, who also can sing tell me what you think abt me instinctively. koon char and yogs who siao siao during break time start dancing to spice girls (o.O, i know.) . er winnah beside me who is practicing touch typing. & many many more. hey, school can be fun. but, that still doesnt mean that sleeping at 3am four nights in a row and yet having to wake early is morally right.


the week started on a bad note, though. havent study for test, and yogs got her wallet stolen
(whoever you are who stole her wallet you better return now inside no money anyway so why you want to take it huh you tell me why yogs want me to tell you you are a fat s-ho but pls return still even though she called you that). but yah thankfully she recovering quite well. and she is out of this world funny. in replacement of her lost wallet, she has a new wallet. a new, paper wallet, might i add. check it out, it's pretty cool.


last night was five mins to fame. ok yayee i won. haha now i have to treat 'everyone' to supper with the yi bai kuai i won. at this moment, yogs would like to blog in my blog.

yogs: v good damn proooo (: shiok siaZzZzZZzZz
me: (laughs) o.O

ok so anyway yah, it was kind of fun standing on stage in front of like maybe the whole hall (ok im kidding) and letting them watch my knees wobble. fhm and zak came, which i truly madly deeply appreciate. thank you. xie xie. gum xia. dor jeh. terima kasih. arigato. cumsahabnida. gracias. danke schon. tanks (that was singlish).

can i jus say that i am becoming socially retarded. im experiencing a movie drought, i havent stepped foot into town since school started, i havent seen gk since school started, i havent spoken to much of my non-cs friends other than those i speak to through a computer screen, and I HAVENT BEEN TO VIVO. jus that last point declares me a level 8 social retard.
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Saturday, February 03, 2007
the spell i'm under

hello weekend, i see you again. but hello weekend, i can't really be happy becus you often mean hours of cooping up at home trying to clear that to-do list. but hey, weekend, i know it's not your fault that my limited days at home are spent like this.

ok. it's saturday morning 2am and i am home from a mad week in school. am trying my best to be coherent. or understandable, at least.

so like i said, the week has been pretty mad. RA-dee-oh finally kickstarted with me and the partner cutting a song into half when we started our show; playing two songs twice over in the two hours; probably blasting the poor canteen b patrons with too loud music, and what not. and i reckon that if the show is anything more than 2 hours a week, i will come out of the 8 weeks with severe, acute, very dangerous high blood pressure. but really good adrenaline driving fun.

nxt week can be predicted, depended on, almost for sure will be taxing until i probably will drop dead. two tests, three assignments, one proposal, and then five minutes to fame(or shame), plus RA-dee-oh again. kamikaze kamikaze kamikaze!! :x

i miss my friends. miss gracesee and miss titu, i have not seen you nor spoken much, or sms even, since our going out party at amkkbox jus before sem started. can i jus say that, life is pretty much not very life without you gals. bad enough miss ahtay is not here, and dun even noe whr to find her now that she's on internship. boo hoo hoo, i whine whine whine becus i can't see ur ur ur. (ok this is really the exhausted 2am brain speaking) jus make sure ur dun forget me becus i will bring chen yiru to haunt u! *mei dang wo de mu guang...*
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Friday, January 26, 2007
cheap, must buy.

days in school nowadays never go down uneventful. not a chance, never. with the kicking in of radio fusion and the start of all the projects and all, i'd be glad if i even have some time to breathe. but radio is really adrenaline. i went on air for the first time ever in school, and omg, i think im hooked. addicted alr. on mic im a bunch of nerves and all, but off mic im like i wna do that again! it gives you chirpy, happy, feelings to be there. even if it means any small mistake you make might be picked up by the pple eating at canteen b or streaming online; or picked up by those many many ah tiongs out there. but i really dug that 1 hour on air. :)

fhm day this week was at swensens. sharing wonder and shock stories to each other. happily eating our chocopops and sticky chewys and splits. and grocery shopping is always happy. everything was just, cheap must buy, free must take. its auntie until i cannot believe it. and we bought lots of things! well, something like lots of things lah. hahahah i convinced feebs to buy crak, and i bought enough laundry detergent to wash clothes for africa (according to yogs). taking the free shuttle bus back, we decided nxt week's outing shall be at pioneer mall. becus they have giant's, but fooderies like only got macs and koufu lehh. how to satisfy us foodies?

i die alr lor, i went to start on grey's season 2. i confirm plus chope stamp die liao. its all yogs' fault. she got me started on grey's. she sucks. but sucks, here, is a term of endearment. so she sucks a lot a lot. but some other people, whom iglobally doesnt like, sucks the real true sucky way. but hey the weekend's here. we can take comfort in that can't we? or do we lament the fact that weekend signals the start of another week of pure madness?
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
i swallow.

i take back what i said.

i am damn stressed, now.
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wa jit zhun jin sian.

sie sian ah! okay, clearly, im turning into hokkien kia. this is becus i am waiting for bmw to start, and whilst doing that citation indexes around the world are setting themselves up against me. they doesnt like me. no mattter how i try, i still cannot figure out what that SSCIAHCISCI thing means in the 105 assignment. so, as predicted, i buay tahan cs105!

school, has never, been so hectic before. again, who is the person who proudly happily gleefully tell me that uni is easy? that jc is the worst, after you get through that, uni is a breeeeeeeeeze? wah piang eh, buay tahan. its definitely not that, lor! i dno how, nor can i believe, the amount of work (and trouble) i have gotten myself into. besides the compulsory modules, i happily go and lup a lot of kang tao on myself. publication subcomm la, cultural subcomm la, radio fusion la, church things la... very good, really very good. it is hard work, and timelessness, and stress. but fun, and exciting work too. work is fun. ok great i am officially becoming senile the moment that sentence came out.

but hey, life is beautiful (so beautiful, its beautiful to me). and when will i ever get the chance to do all these crazy things again? when i step into the heartless cruel brutal society? no man. so enjoy it now, or never.

life is beautiful (so beautiful, its beautiful to me).
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Friday, January 19, 2007
funny humour, mostly.

maybe thursdays shld be declared fhm days frm now on. finally had the fhm gathering that is so, so, overdue. and despite the letdown of the fishhead steamboat closing down, it was still a happy affair. code language. fhm at kpt = hm + yth + rm. maybe only fhm will understand. but for the benefit of my dear readers. this can be decoded as, fhm at kopitiam = hae mee + yong tau hoo + ramen. oh, and not to forget - lots of corn, peanuts, gula melaka and the gross bandung thingy that feebs ate. gosh, she actually took that 'stuff'.

simple meal, simple outing, boring and old jurong point but even grocery shopping seemed fun. yogs took FOREVER to choose a decent box of grapes that had to be big, w/o bruises and seedless. who's the perfectionist here? and she very funny, she bring umbrella right, and it opened in the middle of jurong point, in the middle of crowd and people, yes. aiyah we all self declared a lot of mistakes tonight la. but it was fun la, siao!

morefhmplease! :)
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
yonghe, forever.

supper hop adventure with hall 12 folks last night. despite it being a lot more uneventful than i had imagined, a fun experience, nevertheless. i declare the best bite of the night, dou jiang you tiao. it's NAAAII-CE. others were pretty good too. ngor hiong and popiah in jalan besar (first time i see luk cheong in popiahs), drunken prawn char kway teow (really must drunken o.O) and some really good fuzhou fishballs at old airport road, and finally yonghe in geylang.

but the uncle in yonghe is quite ugly. ugly not as in physical terms, but ugly service, lah. whr got people so rude to customers one? ugly service ugly service. this is why singapore always kena slam for bad service. but highlight of the night - the guys brought us on a 'tour' of geylang. im appalled at how familiar they are with the area. which street, which turn got what kinda girls, what they'll do, blah blah blah. despite the sight, and da kai yan jie, it's really quite sad. these girls, most of them are really good looking one. look and dress like celebrities too.

also, understood the meaning of un-gentlemanliness last night. liews these boys really dno how to zuo ren one. find seat alr, ownself sit first. walk in geylang, walk fast fast w/o us. epitome of bu hui zuo ren, seriously. but at least it was quite a success, huh. dun think i saw so many hall 12 pple tgt at the same time, us being a rather 'quiet' and 'unhappening' hall.

so u who is reading my blog = u who i hang out with quite often. let's embark on supper hop also! it's a happy exciting fun and fattening experience! wah wah wee wah!
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Friday, January 12, 2007
i laugh in the face of danger

first week of school can pretty much be summed up in one word - uninspiring. even though this set of modules is the 'more interesting' of the two, lecturers have still been less than interesting. 103 is machiam 101, complete with the weird activities and monotonous talking. i suspect i will die in 105 becus of the potential numbers, equations and statistics that may arise well into the course. alas, the bmw seems to bring some hope. and stress. 108 has a very funny hand-actions-packed guy lecturing. but at least there's some mac-fun there. 111 is readings that cause an insane $13. jus paying thru my nose for the textbooks and readings is enough to bring some serious siansation. and i have to go back to the life of waking up at normal hours. or should i say abnormal, thanks to the four 8.30am days?

at this point, i wished i could be like myuk, and laugh in the face of danger. probably only yonghui can get this joke. but really, maybe holidays shldnt be so 6-weeks long. long until i totally lose sense of what school is supposed to feel like. what doing ur own laundry and ironing and cleaning should be like. and what eating non-home-cooked or even non-home-eaten food feels like. how about some "take me home, country road" now?

henceforth, the childhood gibberish now. if i become PM one day, i will abolish all kinds of homework, projects and early morning lectures. school can be conducted starting from 10pm, and popcorn and nachos can be served during classtime. tutorials are a big no-no, so are weird and meaningless classroom activities like bingo.

let's heal the world, make it a better place, no?
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Monday, January 01, 2007
sayonara 2006, ahnyung 2007!

another year's gone in a flash, hasn't it?

it's always refreshing to start a new year, on a brand new clean slate. i've given up making resolutions, because it seems the more i make it a resolution, the more i fail the resolution. so this time i shall just keep it registered as a 'gentle reminder' in my heart, and try to make a conscious effort to fulfil it.

but starting the new year = back to school! i dun waaaaaannnnnnt! i can't do it lorr. first of all my clock is like all screwed up alr. i woke up today at like 2 plus. on good days in school, my day would've already ended already. that's just, wrong. haha, but the idea of being forced to wake up early everyday and have a proper purpose rather than just having 'watch korean drama' and 'sleep somemore' on my agenda. BUT it also means i will not be able to watch anymore sunday night epl matches. man utd better not be schedule on sunday anymore. but its highly impossible. SEE LAH, i told you it's sian.

bye 2006. all the hard knocks you've bestowed, all the smiles and tears you've given... i've gone through them all. and i reckon they've helped me grow a great deal. it was a year of great independence, really. whatever 2007 has in store, i pray God gives me the strength and the courage to go through the new lessons.
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
more cookies & cream.

i passed (like finally)! it would be appropriate at this point of time to do a giganticnormously biggg WHOO HOO! seriously lor, like finally. in the rain, no less!

it didn't come without mishaps, though. had a huge scare when the car started to roll backwards on the slope AGAIN. my heart really jump out until the end of the slope there. but the slope thing also a bit useless. PUHlease where got people stop in the middle of the slope one lorr. accumulated three 4-pointers due to 'failing to confirm safety' again. all points were in the circuit... circuit really my nemesis. but who cares! pass means pass liao. hyuk hyuk!

but to those out there who are looking forward to a ride from me... give me some time alrights. let me gain sufficient confidence with the big camry auto before you entrust your lives in my hands. mummy dearest in shanghai said she'll go to carrefour and get me a toy car to drive o.O ...

love the new shirt frm sister. xD
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Sunday, December 24, 2006
of samba dances & physiotherapy.

we have a fetish with chalet blankets. the last time we were there to have ah tay's 'surplise' farewell chalet, we took silly photos with the blankies. proof:
on friday when we went again (compliments of erge and auntie!), we did it again. proof, again:

lol! it was a fun-filled day and night. we finally went cycling, all the way to tampines park to play the playground. but only for a while becus the sky started to rain. xie titu hates me lorr, keep coming to bang me for no reason. tsk. but actually its really becus she can't really cycle! hahaha.


we went swimming also! went late, so the pool was practically booked by us. until this laopehpeh came and say funny things to us. he's weird, and showy too. keep showing off his 'stunts'... disgusting. then got other people doing 'weird' things in the pool also. haha... we also not very normal la. they dare me to do shin chae gyung dance in the pool in front of the transparent wall, and i did! haha, dun dare me to do stupid things. i will do one. rode on one another in the pool, and did 17385 (LOL).

ben & jerry's! subway! big bag! green tea! haha... happy indulgences with the girls. we had loads of fun. but pain, as well. miss physiotherapist practiced on us, and IT WAS PAIN ONE LOR. everybody, please stretch before you exercise, or else you will have knots in your muscles, and it is PAIN ONE LOR. haha. but i had so much fun with them. as always.


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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
im happiest when im a siao cha bor.

we gals have been meeting up more often recently, thanks to our schedules FINALLY finding some holidays in common. since we completed our exams, we've went to watch mayday and kee siao tgt; went to ah grace's to slack and play with bowyie; went for sushi buffet tgt (after 3 years!); and even came to my place to eat big bag. AH TAY! UR MISSING OUT!

anyways today we decided to eat our favourite KWAY CHAP and have big bag gathering at toa payoh headquarters. the rain is siao one. from yesterday rain until now practically nvr stop before. first time i see singapore got car is halfway under water one. so the 3pm became 5pm? anyway im not surprised, i was prepared to see them at my doorstep at 7pm anyways. they are latecomer queens.

watch tv. play comp. watch ONE LITRE! wrote ah tay postcards. and look at wu zun's huge tattoo. IT IS HUGE, no matter how much ah grace wants to hide from the truth. the truth always hurts, my dear. and to prove to everyone how big it really is, here is a print screen:

ISN'T IT HUGE!
it's big one lorr! cover like 80% of his arm?! ah grace, PLS WAKE UP. still say how small how small. IT IS BIG. stop deceiving urself, even when u cannot deceive others arnd u... o.O

but we had so much fun. watching mad youtube videos, including ATROCIOUS english translation to the S.H.E 'HOW' song.

that one is, can die one. :)
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Monday, December 18, 2006
defeat is nvr sweet.

we lost! leaders of the league, injury free, playing against relegatable team, and we lost. fulltime score: westham utd 1 - man utd 0. im officially in mourning. to think i started the game predicting a 2-0 man utd's way, and somebody still can tell me 3-0. hey you guys, i was expecting you to thrash westham lahh, not kena pressed by them! tsk. jose mourinho must be laughing in his dreams now.

but NVM. good thing is, we saw ole solskjaer and park jisung come back into play today. (ole, ole, ole ole~) jisung i missed u!! wahh he's zai, jus recover frm injury only run like siao liao. fast like anything. i love u!! but its ok i noe ur true love is ah tay. :D
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
my prerogative

it's about time i said this - i've officially finished watching goong, & am now a post-goong mad person. i know i know, i am so damn slow. in the words of titu & ah grace, even channel u has finished airing the show then i start watching. but hey, lag-ness is my prerogative ok. im not me if i'm constantly up to date with watching my shows.

but if i judge and rmb correctly, i was more crazy after watching full hse than i am now with goong. one very obvious ruler is how crazy i was over rain than i am now over this shin goon. i suspect i like the old hae-moni more than shin goon even. lol. but one thing i enjoy more in goong - the setting. modern drama but you see the chinese looking palace, plus the elegant hanboks. i really like the hanboks! but i noe well enough that they are much too costly to buy for myself to keep in the wardrobe. reason being i'll nvr get a chance to wear in singapore one la.

now that im done with goong... its time to move on to the 298374 shows i have left to conquer. i am so not going to finish in time for sch. which means as usual, start sch with lots of regrets and reluctance. lol. :)
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Thursday, December 14, 2006
(extreme)ly extreme.

extremely good.

went to the nativity story with titu and ah grace. roaring, roaring time. frm being fashionably late, to our heng xing ba dao of suntec city... i had so much fun. so much fun with these girls who've been thru the test of time with me. re-lived the days of mrs cheong's useless rants, the days of lao ma/shao ma, and walked together hand in hand, blocking the way of everyone else including the security guard. haha... its memories that can only be remembered by us who went through it, and feel it in the heart. 3 of us squeeze into the lovers' seat at the cinema even. until the end i moved to the floor to sit. :) really, really had fun today girls. it's been so long.

extremely bad.

ah gong. enough said.
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Thursday, December 07, 2006
oh, happy day.

its been a couple of pretty happy past few days, both pretty and happy. started on the 933 course, which started off pretty stressful BECUS my chinese now is cannot-make-it-like-sai standard. taking notes is hard to do, BECUS i have super a lot of words i dno how to write liao. really like sai, wasted all those years of chinese-fying. ought to be ashamed of myself, really. but fun lah, overall.

pretty and happy MAINLY becus i finally met up with my fave girls tgt! last night, immediately after titu finished her last paper. abc concert and got high with mayday. i think my mother beside me must have went like -.-" these girls are mad. well, while the oldies quite high with that chen sheng ah pek, three of us were busy looking bored and playing stupid games. like hitting each others' lightsticks. THEN when mayday finally come out we seriously high until cannot liao. "lian ai ai N G!!!" very busy lorr, one hand hold lightstick, one hand hold clapper, still must blow whistle, and then still got the big plastic clappers... NO TIME AH! but it was fun... even though we had to leave earlier. :( cus stupid chen sheng ah pek sing so long, mayday only come out arnd 10.45. but fun fun! nxt time if got mayday concert MUST go.

timetabling is finally over. i hate ntu timetabling. the system sucks. i do not like kuai shou kuai jiao. its madness. 2.31pm my sister sms me all the slots taken up?! when the thing 2.30pm start!! siao one. k.i.a.s.u. until the zui highest jing jie.

but anyway! ah grace quick finish your tests!! then we can go havoc! we havent eaten sushi tgt for THREE years liao horr. havent go kbox since ah tay last year birthday liao horr. havent sit tgt and rot for extremely long liao. c'mon c'mon baby love love love! :D
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Saturday, November 25, 2006
the birthday song

today, is definitely a blog-worthy day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH TAY! :))

its my pint-sized, are-you-mad, wo-yao-yun-le, all-the-way-in-montreux best friend ah tay's 19th! its more special now that ur in montreux, isnt it. you get to have 31 hours to spend your birthday, both sg and swiss time. :) are you gna go out today? will there be anyone to celebrate and blow out candles for you? will you have fun?
have fun ok... we miss you a lot back here. and not just becus we don't have anyone to bully after you're gone. msn or skype, or any new invention will nvr be the same as being tgt. sometimes it feels awfully scary that you're gna be away frm us so long. and the wait is too long sometimes. we're just short of the wholesome-ness a little. a lot, little. be back soon, k?

happy birthday, my friend.
here's to all the years we've shared together,
all the fun we've had.
you're such a blessing,
such a joy in my life.
so light a candle on your cake,
for all the smiles you've help create.
including mine,
including ours. :)
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Friday, November 24, 2006
happy feet, lousy feet.

vivocity didn't happen today. because our dear miss conjunctivitis had to go throw away her conjunctivated glasses away by today, so we went down to vision express to get her specs done. within 45 mins at that, too!

so anyway suki and happy feet followed. happy feet is not happy. well maybe only the first hour was happy. songs and medleys were sheer pro-ness. fantastic to hear nicole kidman's singing again; brittany murphy doing her own rendition of queen's somebody to love; and hear hugh jackman rock to heartbreak hotel. and it was super funny also. UNTIL the 2nd half of the show kicked in. everything just became too ridiculous and far-fetched. what were the writers thinking? trying to be special? they think they cool? really, jus a normal cliched cartoon story will be just fine lorr. why try to be funny and bring in all those cuckoo things man. spoil my show. at the end of the show, once the lights came on, it was jus sheer silence. i guess nobody knew how to react. kids were probably jus puzzled and clueless about what's going on. adults, probably kek abt the money they just wasted.

after reading all that, if you want to feel the true impact - go watch the show.
1:28 am
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Thursday, November 23, 2006
top of the world

disclaimer: the following may cause nausea and disgust to viewers who are still going through torturous and arduous examinations. such viewers should refrain from reading, otherwise you will just feel miserable, lah. im sorry. :/

HELLO world! HELLO, exam-free, mugging-free, B-E-A-YOOOtiful world! as of today, semester one of year one is officially, certainly, surely and thankfully overr! getting a little hyper and exaggerated here, but i cant help it! it seems like an awfully short 4 mths, but while at it, trust me - it was unimaginable. but the bottomline is this - this is the bottomline - (i am so excited i am repeating myself) i am free. as free as, "naahh~ that's my freedom, naahh~"! :)

cs816 was the bomb, though. like completely, sai lah. liews question 1 and 2 was fine, then turn the page, very good, gg already. i sit there, stunned at the remaining 50 marks i have to earn. what on earth is whether this metaphor is suitable or not?! i thought i learning about some computer stuff... why got literary device come out one. and our lecturer mr. curly gnome bluff us! he bluffed me lorr. he say questions wldnt come from readings?! that 50 marks everywhr i read everywhr put "please support this with materials from the lecture and readings." mummy, not fair!

but i doesnt care liao. over means over liao. tmr onwards i am going to do stuff eat stuff breathe stuff that i like. its kdrama marathon, baby! no more muggathon, baby! straight after paper was post-exam-reward at swensen's. discovered tuna salad with very nice sauce. and white chocolate blondie! omg that is smthg good and new and nice and everything. what with pistachios, almonds, and PINE NUTS arent nice?

one bad thing, though. i have a non-repairable virus in my laptop. non-repairable, in the words of norton antivirus itself. very good already. ultimate sianness. especially when i scan my hard disk religiously at least twice a week, update everything and do all the what not's. why this happen to me!! though things are still functioning as per normal and nothing seems to be wrong, this is my suay kuan, you understand? i cannot have something like that hanging arnd my computer one. must get rid of it. wait for matthew to come back and save my ass.

tmr is vivocity day. i think im abt the only person i know left who hasnt gone to vivocity. candy empire! minties! lots food and shopping and getting lost! it is gna be fun, fun, fun. i am a happy kid. to those out there still trapped under the treacherous claws of our education system, luck.
12:43 am
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Friday, November 17, 2006
it's our family affair

a casual chat with my favourite titu inspired me to make a list. a list of what we love to do; a list of what we havent been doing in eons; a list of what we should do once when these eons are over. i shall name this list, "my list". (how creative, but give me some credit - this is midexam)

my list.
1. go to the carpark hawker centre and eat our favourite kway chap. with nothing but da chang, tau pok and kiam cai.
2. go to titu hse and drink yeo hup seng. and also por auntie.
3. grab a bag of big bag and be found on the sofa in my hse watching tv.
4. draw ugly pictures of ah tay while she is not arnd!
5. be siao cha bor's in kbox.
6. orange bowl in st nicks darlings?!
7. enjoy subwaaaaay! (now that titu has learnt the art of subbing)
8. go to gracie hse to niao erge and be scared of dage. (LOL)
9. go to gracie hse and guess riddles with auntie. niu pi deng long.

jealous already, ah tay? dun worrreeeeee. ur SPIRIT and PRESENCE will always be with us always. so morbid. it's OUR family affair so ur included ok. whatever time, venue and day we will inform you. if you don't come means you went out with tauhid and also means you hate jay. ahhhh i love my friends. we are happy three+one friends!

too strong for too long,
cus i can't be without you baby. XD
11:30 pm
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
goodbye, my lover

goodbye, my lover.
goodbye, my friend.

i wave byebye to cs101(like, finally) and cs102 as of today! conquer or no conquer, two papers are over and done with. i'll miss cs102 though. cherian george is super funny, super witty and super good all bao gao liao-ed together. i'll miss his lessons and humorous comments. c'mon, even his exam questions are funny. according to him, we are all now "cool communication studies undegrads", who also set up the group YAZOO - youths against zoos. LOL. trust him to come up with such stuff.
9:09 pm
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
i doesnt like leh.

liews. why got something called study one? worse still, why got something called exams? thought they say, heal the world and make it a better place? for you and for me and the entire human race? then why dun eliminate something as disgusting and detestable as exams? i doesnt like having to study, and having to lug extra things back home on top of my xiaohei. POUT. but doesnt mind, for these two weeks and these two weeks only, i will strive to be study queen. i am a mugger toad (yah, right.)!

people in hall are funny, really. on top of still walking around at 3 plus am, on top of leaving their laundry in the laundry room for days, on top of smelling weird (wah lau.), and on top of laughing damn loud while swinging a racket around in the room(like the person who lives across the block), they give weird names to people. i was walking back from canteen a with fiona, with the hood of the jacket i borrowed frm her slung over my head. jus becus i was too lazy to carry anything on my hand. a group of guys chatting outside on level 3 saw and went, 'wah little red riding hood!'. -.-" HAR?! but haha it was amusing.

my father also very funny. recently he has caught on the heels of technology. first he learnt skype, then he learnt sms, then email. yes i noe the sequence a bit funny but yes it's true. he starts to sms me things like 'queue @ airport' every other day. some weeks ago i received a 'queue at airport do u want lunch' and 'lunch menu porridge or fried bee hoon'. tt's right, minimal punctuation and more often than not, spelling errors. but its weirdly makes your day, or moment. today, i got a 'chicken curry any objection?'. haha upgraded, now got punctuation already.

its cell potluck coming friday, and im going to geh kiang make something korean. someone who doesn't cook is going to skip many steps in between, instead of buying or doing something tried and tested, im going to be super woman. ILOVEKOREAN. : )
1:42 am
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
18, 29.

e-learning is kinda silly. to the extent of stupid, even. due to the fact that i have absolutely no self-control or discipline whatsoever, to wake up at 7.30am for a "virtual lecture". due to the fact that there isn't any "live" lecture even, just uploaded powerpoint slides. due to the fact that i am damn tempted to continue on my kdrama marathon. but EXAMS are knock-a-knocking on my doorsteps and its time to pull my kimchi korean socks up. HAHA.

but staying home is cool, is good. no more canteen 13 cai beng, no more just chilli kangkong + egg tofu + chilli minced meat. haha even though there's nothing much to choose frm at home either. at least i get my aircon and teevee (which i've lost touch with since i moved into hall). and i even got the chance to go meet ah grace (along with bowyie, of cus).

it's been raining an awful lot recently. not that it's bad news. we get good sleep AND good air. just checked the psi on tv, and it was 17. do we EVEN need to display it if its 17?! haha but it's good, clear, nice smelling air. once again, suntec city is visible frm my window.

ah tay: dun be too bored there! if you're bored u can go and bathe, even though i know you really dun like to. or you can jus go smell your socks lor... ur favourite pastime mah. :x
8:42 pm
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
the unimportant, insignificant flea.

the princess and the flea,
hardly have anything in common.
the princess gained her crown,
the flea gained the frown.

i saw it thru the window,
ecstasy, euphoria, estatic.
but the heart and love that went into it,
it never got reciprocrated.

you don't care, do you.
you all don't care, do you.
it's fine, it's good.
the flea is alright,
she'll flutter off into the shadows.
10:21 pm
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Friday, October 27, 2006
oh save me, frm this place.

hello everyone. im back from an unofficial, unannounced 2-week hiatus. meanwhile, its been an uneventful, unhappening 2 weeks. so to cut to the chase - it was b.o.r.i.n.g.

what could possibly be so eventful anyway? well for a change, im free frm any more presentations, assignments, projects & speeches. (it must've been love)... but it's OVER now! :) that's really good u noe, no more working in bloodsucking groups and needless frustration. but then again, it also signals the start of real pure mugging all over again cus of the impending exams. EXAMS?! gosh, havent heard that word, or done anything for that kinda stuff since a year ago. mugging all over again?! :x then again, exams mean that holidays are near too! so i shall be a half-fuller rather than a half-emptier.

right now, im in cs101 lect. yes ok, chide me or whatever for blogging in lect. but hey, i think im the saint among the rascals in this class. that is, those who actually come at all. and for those who actually dragged their sleepy bottoms to class at 8.30am on a friday morning. let's see... maybe 10% are actually copying notes? maybe... 30% actually have their computer screen at the ppt slides? the rest... well. some are watching taiwanese drama... some watching korean drama... some watching english show... last lect even got one watching sister act. YES you saw it right, sister act ONE somemore. tell me why im here?!
8:44 am
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
the princess & the flea

cathy & jodie. incredibly good read, smthing that's well suited to my friendship-pey taste buds. it made smiles dress up my face as i read them on the go admidst crowds, and as i prepared to retire for the night on my bed. and its something that can make u feel all fuzzy & warm inside, esp if you have company such as my siao cha bor's. it's effortless to relate to what is written in there. we may not have done things in the exact context, but that familiarity is there.

grace, kaishi & i didnt even start out as the best of friends immediately. we were jus somehow in the same class, but hung out with different groups separately. like they love to say, i used to hang out with the pai kia's! & we only got to know ah tay in the jc years. we may not have had a group like the meringues, but we sure are as colourful as them.

gracie. there are some traits about this girl that sets us apart right away. for one, WE ARE NEVER LATE ALL THE TIME! gosh, i have absolutely no idea how this girl manages to be late, somehow or another, every single time. and compared to me and titu, gracie is relatively quieter in class. i'll forever be talking, and titu (as according to mrs maria sng), will be 'jumping arnd in class'. -.-

titu. for one, none of us have sweaty palms!! hahaha. but we love ur sweaty palms also ok. :D the one who always rush home at 2.05pm every afternoon in st nicks to catch her tv & beauty sleep. family is 'shareholder' of yeo hup seng. EXTREMELY LOVABLE mum (HEE!).

ah tay. stark difference - small size. how about, extremely small size? haha but she's one chilli padi. its only been a short 2.5 years so far, but i'd say what we share definitely goes beyond the measurement of time. yay ur mum took over my mum to take top spot! many idiosyncrasies about her, this chilli padi. how about, ARE YOU MAD?! or... march 31st? the bomb: her weird photoshots.

me. let's say it together: disgustingly neat. perfectionist. goldilocks? to titu at least, im 'disgustingly neat', while ah tay's and her table are probably mt everest and 'covered in snow' the year throughout.

we certainly do not dress up like movie characters and don the streets of orchard road. but we do equally crazy things. others will probably think we're losers by sticking to each other and (probably) only each other in the years that have passed us by, and the years ahead... but i think we're all damn proud of what we share. and jus like what jodie said, "you and your friends define what is 'colourful' - and to hell with what others think".

to end with, i think i've found it. that once-in-a-lifetime-equivalent sort of thing, that sort of combination as out of the world as ice kachang with no red beans, but yet as precious as the promise of a rainbow. i've found my rascal of a pal, or pals, to be precise. but there's no such thing as a self-generating friendship, and we'd have to work damn bloody hard to make sure we smile at each other with our dentures decades down the road.

but for us, we're not the sort that pick the easy way out. how far we've come is evidence in itself. i love my siao cha bors. :)
5:27 pm
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006


school is a wreck.
the day was a wreck.
i am a wreck.

but it was all made so much better by one single thing a single person did. :))
ken drove all the way to ntu jus to go out for supper with me. even though i was half asleep while sipping teh-peng and eating french fries and watching him play his rally, it felt heartwarmingly, warm.

cus amk to boonlay is like, pasir ris to boonlay.
cus not saying anything, jus sitting & playing games is like, better than anythg.
cus tmr will be petshop day. :)

thank you, you.
12:45 am
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006


the first time i failed, the only thing i felt was the money and time wasted.
the second time i failed, the only thing i felt was failure.

the first time i failed, i got over it within 10 minutes.
the second time i failed, i could barely keep the tears in for 1 minute.

the first time i failed, i was a ship with just a small insignificant dent.
the second time i failed, i know i was shipwrecked.

it stings to look failure in the eye - a second time.

i felt like hopping onto a bus, any bus and jus sit and see where it took me. but even my ezlink card refused to cooperate - no money inside. i felt like taking myself to my hideout during mugging days and jus sit, sip coffee, munch subway cookies, and read. but even cathy & jodie (which is a terribly good read), could not lift my spirits. and yet i was reluctant to go home, and possibly face people, on top of facing myself. so all i did was wish the bus ride would never end, hope that commuters would not notice me, and find whatever comfort there was in angsty punk rock music.

its not all over, i know.
i'll still try again, i know.
but the stakes will jus get higher.
and i'd be left with the choice of making it at multiple tries,
or breaking it yet again.

for now, i jus wan to binge, feel like a wreck, and wallow in my own self pity.
5:52 pm
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Saturday, September 23, 2006


mid-sem, finally.

who cares abt the stressful weeks and shitty grp members when u get to go out with a bang? i went out with a bang today, with the twang :)). it was subway (which got cancelled cus no white chip!), then cartel, then food court but of cus not for hei she hui, then subway (yes again, cus there's white chip now), then lido for drinks and icy tower. i officially announce, that we are the bomb. hardly had so much fun in a long, long time. breath of civilisation downtown was a welcoming change, despite that fact that we are miss da-bao-xiao-bao's for the day. stuffed ourselves full with bread, mushrooms, fish, bread, and more food.

fun is but an understatement - it felt like sheer bliss. most memorable moment - my inability to breathe through the jokes at foodcourt, and my getting high from there on. and of cus, her laughing at my initial score of 40 when she the expert game over-ed at a honourable zero thereafter. o.O

recess week ahead looks dreadfully packed with the wrong stuff - projs. assignments. but for now, what a night it's been.

:)) double chin, and lovin' it.
1:21 am
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Sunday, September 17, 2006


weekends are happier, nicer, sweeter - not. it's all jus screwed. its supposed to be better, not worse. its supposed to be happier, not sadder. its supposed to feel lighter, not heavier. its all jus screwed now. its scary when you actually feel like going back to hall and having school, esp when school already sucks so much.

so do i rejoice in that i get to look fwd to what seems now like the better of the two evil? its all just, screwed.
12:52 am
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Sunday, September 10, 2006



im missing my best friends an awful lot. :(
1:57 am
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Friday, September 08, 2006


some might wonder why i havent blogged in almost a week (if anyone even reads this thing anyway). well, uni life is jus hard to handle. im stripped of the time and the effort to sit down and start chanting abt the boring and uneventful life that i've been leading the past week. assignments and projs and stuff jus keep coming, even before i find the time to clear those that are arnd on my to-do list.

its not jus the work that im finding hard to handle. if its jus work, no matter how much, i'll jus probably only grumble and do them all the same. but its the environment, too. people are becoming too hi-bye for me to take; i have too many acquaintances for my own comfort; the air arnd sometimes feels too full of pretense for me to be able to embrace. one minute pple are lovin ya, and the nxt they turn the tables and you barely have time to realize it, much less know why. who is there that i can truly call a pal? it started off rather well... and jus kinda went downhill frm there i guess. what happened?

at times like these i miss my girls even more. its hard enough we're all in different schools (countries) doing different things. we handled it in jc, we can handle it again right?

but on a lighter note, forbidden city was the bomb. like seriously, dynamite-filled-power-explosives, bomb. can forget abt looking only towards foreign musicals liao, pple. we've got good, home-grown musicals. with home-grown artistes. kit chan is really the bomb lorr. singapore idol can go eat shit and fly kite for all i care. they're nvr gna in a million gazillion years make it close. starting the show in the first place was jus a mistake. kit chan, and even hossan leong, is the bomb. :)

this is my only chance,
love, open my heart.
years of broken dreams all in the past.
this is my only chance,
love, make me a part.
of someone, who shows me.
he knows me, and loves me...
at last.

11:00 pm
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Sunday, September 03, 2006


im up on the 2nd consecutive night at an unearthly hour. doing it in the name of work, but i noe that deep down, im actually trying my luck to see if ah tay will come on. it's wishful thinking, i noe, but jus can't help doing it. it's worrying not to have heard anything from her, that she's reached safely and is settling down well. even though i noe she's probably busy unpacking and everything else.

still not quite adjusted yet. its abt 2am now and usually i'd still be chatting online with her. there are lots of new albums coming out lately and usually she'd be the only one who'd discuss them with me. im 'chatting' with my cs101 textbook and looking up the new albums on my own.

are you there yet? safe and sound and settling?
2:06 am
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Friday, September 01, 2006


reeling from the after-effects of sending best friend off at the airport. its scaringly weird to noe that she's probably transitted, and on the way to far-until-like-siao switzerland. and i wldnt see her little cutesy frame for a year. no longer toapayoh to novena now, it's singapore to switzerland. can i jus say that it sucks big time?!

weird way of sending her off too. so many aunties lah, uncles lah, cousins lah... we were jus in the background. brief hug which i didnt even had enough time to savour, and she's off in a whiff. with the bagpack that's bigger than her body, and heavier than maybe even herself. im so gna miss you ah tay. you better come back as soon as i fill up that coinbox you gave. and she didnt cry again!! whack her lorr, everybody.

my wish, for you
is that this life becomes all that you want it to
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
you never have to carry more than you can hold
and while you're out there gettin' whr you're gettin' to
i hope you noe somebody loves you
and wants the same things too
yeah this, is my wish.
:)

have the time of ur life, ah tay.
while ur at it, rmb that im missing u already! hugs.
9:34 am
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006


growing up is hard to do.
university is kinda tough, too.

within a span of a few short days, i feel like i've been through so much. too much for my yet-to-be mature heart and mind to take. being in ntu; being in hall - i see so many faces, familiar and less familiar ones. familiar ones like how i bumped into peiling on the bus today and it was easy to jus go HANAR to her loudly on the bus. less familiar ones like yunshan, whose name i found it even impossible to recall initially.

but even familiar ones can grow unfamiliar sometimes. its funny even the closest people can make you feel distant. like how they jus seem totally disinterested in talking to you, or engaging in anything with you. i hate how i have to try to bring up stupid things to try to get them to talk, only to get nonchalant replies. i hate to be found alone in hall, doing nothing but facing my metallic machine of a communicator.

but most of all, i hate having to face tmr. i have no courage, i admit it. jus thinking abt tmr now wells up tears. most would say that with today's technology, distance is really not distance anymore; like far is the new near. but, no, this is not going to apply to me. hearing her voice through the headphones or maybe even seeing her through a screen is not going to make up for the terrible fact that she is still gna hundreds and thousands of miles away. and the sad part of it all is, that i really can't do anything abt it, other than to send her away with all my love, well-wishes and most of all, support.

but i guess this is what life entails. growing up, watching people come and people go. growing up, watching loved ones venture out to try to make their dreams work. growing up, watching the realities of life slowly creeping its way into ur life.

i feel like i jus dun have the courage. nor the drive.
11:29 pm
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