Sunday, August 21, 2005

you and me
we used to be together
everyday together, always
i really feel
that im losing my best friend
i can't believe this could be the end
it looks as though you're letting go
if it's real well i don't want to know

our memories
they can be inviting
but some are altogether
mighty frightening
as we die, both you and i
with my head in my hands
i sit and cry

don't speak
i know jus what you're saying
so pls stop explaining
don't tell me cus it hurts
don't speak
i know what you're thinking
and i dun need your reasons
dunt tell me cus it hurts
it's all ending
we gotta stop pretending
who we are

you and me...
i can see us dying
... are we?

my sentiments exactly.

10:57 pm
mayhemisphere;
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Friday, August 19, 2005

friday. finally. how many would actually understand the 'wear and tear' that one has to go thru jus to reach this day -- friday. tgif, thank god it's friday. but jus as each friday approaches, it also signals the impending prelims and a's. it seems as though it was jus yesterday that i completed the o's. before i know it, the a's are here. fast, so fast... time passes so fast. tgif, i jus wan to tgif.

9:53 pm
mayhemisphere;
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005

it's been so long since i posted an entry, therefore much has occurred within the period. little things here and there... most of which isn't really worth mentioning. or should i say, most of which i feel too lazy to blog abt. can't really blame me either, cus have been spending the majority of my time on the church funfair. didn't expect it to zap up so much of my time, energy or effort, seriously. i thought it'd jus be a one-day thing... but well it turns out that it required much more than that. surprisingly i was quite enthusiastic about helping out... maybe partly cus kenneth's the one in charge and i dun wan to be one of those to play him out. and the other part... well for once in a very long time i felt involved in a youth or church activity. that feeling i owaes have when i give my all into something that matters to me. and pertaining to church, well it's been a long time coming. but i did give my all this time, and i'm glad things turned out pretty fine.

yes, there are frustrations and there always will be. but this time i jus keep telling myself -- at least i know who i can trust from now on. you noe this is one reason why i love to work alone. i can owaes count on myself to complete to task something that is important and necessary to me. my human nature is jus so that i cannot simply chuck things one side, or do a slip-shod job. its a hard nature to deal with sometimes, i know. but that's jus the way it is. if you can't hold yourself responsible to something, pls then dun work with me on stuff like this. it jus irritates the hell outta me when pple jus play you out. if you wanna do something, then jolly well make the best out of it. sometimes you jus gotta act maturely you noe. sighs. well yeah, at least i know who i can trust and who i can't from now on.

this period's been a bunch of disappointments, come to think of it. stuff that's really jus heart-wrenching. my life is in a rut now -- a complete rut. relationship problems... stress over studies... and stuff like that... bits jus eating me up bit by bit. but i can't afford to allow anything to clutter my mind now. other than studying and making the best out of my studies... nothing really is going to matter. nothing CAN matter -- i wouldn't let it.

i will survive, i will survive.
*bites lip and walks on.*

10:12 pm
mayhemisphere;
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