Wednesday, December 29, 2004

i think this xmas was the best yet. i mean, xmas has jus neva taken such a great meaning and excitement before. gifts aside, i mean... celebration sunday was jus fantastic. i did whatever my understanding knew about worshipping God with my item, and i did it to my fullest enjoyment. seriously, it jus really felt that xmas was different. it wasnt the lights along orchard, nor the stupid snow sprays that i heard about. it wasnt about taking pictures near xmas decors with other street pple getting into the picture too, it wasnt about gathering around eatting turkey and honey-baked ham... it was about a xmas with Jesus in it! man it was the best xmas i had. plus the mini-cuzzin gathering we had at shunfu headquarters. steamboat and that little episode that was uncalled for, and the gift exchange. man my big cuzzins really knew what exactly to get me -- adidas freak. 2 more adidas apparel! *wide smile* and what's more, i got my dear dear crumpler which i've decided to name duckie. hahs. dun ask why.

and btw, im pretty sad. my mum jus told me that my dressing is old-fashioned. hrmps! wait until i surprise you guys one day!!! jus wait! that day will... well it'll come sometime. hahaha.

and oh ya. my dearies came over for the day. it was such a din, but a joyful din of course. can u believe it, we didnt meet up all holidays until now!! haha but we had our fun, and we played our mahjong with fake money(no more peanuts lah). tip for you guys next time -- dun sit on xie titu's right side. she play so slow!! and she very funny one her mahjong. mus throw first then eat. *faints* i have to wait so long for her to diu pai lorr. sian sian sian. and grace lose until pok! so funny. she show us her tray, really very pathetic! zhen hao xiao. today was officially a very unproductive day, judging from all the pigging out. oh man! >.<

its scary to think how school is gonna reopen in a matter of days... though it wouldnt be that scary if i have finished all my hw le. but heh hehs... will jus see how i can pia in the last few days. aiyah shldnt be a prob lah... teacher come after me i jus say straight, "homework dun haf, ming you yi tiao, u want?" wahahaha!

11:02 pm
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Sunday, December 26, 2004

abandon self reliance and discover true freedom from leaning on an all-reliable higher power, someone greater than yourself. the one you call your Maker, your Friend, your God. He's in for the rescue, in for the release of your soul, the real you. emerge stronger. leave the remains of your past because you are empowered for greatness. recognize and acknowledge your redeemer. He is your bearings for each lap of the race. rejuvenated by the spirit to run with passion and with zest. made ready for the rehearsals of eternity - this life and each breath that is granted. reclaim the last time and let restlessness cease. reassured of an endless hope and a glorious future. relinquish the strength of your might and let joy make re-entry. restoration is on its way. reveal the lies and expose the accuser. renounce the holds of darkness. restituition is your song. you are the redeemed. resound to the one reigning King, all the praises that you can bring. relive your potential and reabide in the love, be reunited to love. reside in His presence, reignite the fire.

repledge your heart to love.

7:11 pm
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everything went horribly awry. i barely got 4 hours of sleep before i had to leave for service in church. but i willingly did it for God, and it was very great to see my cousins in church and watch how God works. but later i got informed by xie titu that they probably will not come over to my place later today cause some stuff cropped up, ning had cip and all that. well once i found out they werent coming my heart really sank. alrights, i'll admit it. it's great every single time i have them over, but this time i asked them over really for a reason. needed them to keep me company and be my dang jian pai when my sis's friends come over. somehow i felt that i jus needed them to be around so i could feel at ease. now her friends are over. i cannot begin to tell you how noisy a bunch they are. i got woken up from my sleep by them, i come out to a whole bunch of people laughing about dunno what, and i even lost the mood for steamboat. though im really hungry now, i jus dun wan to go there and sit among her friends and be all out of place. i'd rather walk down and go eat my kway chap. sighs. but what is kway chap without the girls? it's not their fault, i noe. i dun blame them at all, but jus wished they were here now. merry xmas, my dears.

7:05 pm
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

i'm pressing on the upward way
new heights i'm gaining every day
still praying as i'm onward bound
"lord, lift me up on higher ground"

lord lift me up and let me stand
by faith, on heaven's table land
a higher plane that i have found
lord plant my feet on higher ground

my heart has no desire to stay
where doubts arise and fears dismay
though some may dwell where those abound
my prayer, my aim is higher ground

i want to live above the world
though satan's darts at me are hurled
for faith has caught the joyful sound
the songs of saints on higher ground

i want to scale the utmost height
and catch a gleam of glory bright
but still i'll pray till heaven i've found
lord plant my feet on higher ground

1:48 am
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Saturday, December 18, 2004

yahoo! i finally got my red crumpler weenie! oh man can u believe it after a wait of almost 2 years. i finally got it. x)))))) thank you, xxx, for buying it for me. i'll never forget the significance behind the gift, and what it means. i promise, i wouldnt. thank u. celeb sunday is drawing very very near... which is very very exciting, because it holds really the climax of all the campaign. but its also tension + excitement + nervousness + and all that jittery feelings. there's so much for me to look into even though my item is only 4 minutes long. the costume + hair + shoes + formation and yada yada... it seems more than i can take. more than i can look into... but surely God will not give me something that i am not able to rise to. but surely God will provide me with the strength and power i need. but surely i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. im going to give my best to God. whatever i have, i'll give it all. my time, effort, energy, heart... everything. i'll give my best to Him. He really deserves my best and beyond.

but after the curtain draws...
it'd be time to face my ~~homework~~...

10:43 pm
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this is how my dear weenie looks! :)))

10:42 pm
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

lol. this blog has been inactive for quite a while huh. jus came back from tennis with bryan, ken and yy. quite fun a game... but still getting used to the swing. feel like getting a tennis racket now... but no, getting another squash racket still comes first. after my crumpler, and headphones, and zenmicro, and... wahahaha. i got a bottomless wishlist. ehh... lazy leh, dunno blog about what. but hols are ending and my homework havent start yet. sian!! really sian. :(

10:54 pm
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