Saturday, July 31, 2004

fingerprints of God

i can see the tears filling your eyes
and i know where they're coming from
they're coming from a heart that's broken in two
by what you don't see
the person in the mirror doesn't look like the magazine
oh but when i look at you it's clear to me

never has there been and never again
will there be another you
fashioned by God's hands
and perfectly planned
to be just who you are
what He's been creating
since the first beat of your heart
is a living, breathing priceless work of art

and i can see the fingerprints of God
when i look at you
and i can see the fingerprints of God
and i know its true
you're a masterpiece that all creation quietly applauds
you're covered with the fingerprints of God

just look at you
you're a wonder in the making
oh and God's not through
in fact, He's just getting started...

so amazing, huh... imagine yourself covered by the fingerprints of God. sometimes we jus neva take the time nor effort to realize ourselves and see ourselves through God's eyes. we're all wonders in the making, fearfully and wonderfully made, the apples of His eye.

1:21 pm
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Sunday, July 25, 2004

"in the beginning, God..."

it was a good message today. this guest speaker, pastor ken came to our church to preach. couldnt catch his last name though...nicham or something. he wasnt especially loud or expressive like most of the guest speakers i've seen so far... but he preached a good message. i was sitting down there listening and writting my sermon notes, amazed at how some of the questions he posed to the congregation seemed so sharp. questions that could get u thinking for hours. this especially hit me: "many of us started life without God, we only got converted halfway through our lives. and so when we got converted, we try to fit God into our lives, lives that are already structure. lives that already have a routine of their own. and so God doesn't really seem to fit." i find that so unbelievably true, especially for myself. there'd be times where i've got "more important" things to get down to rather than spending time with God. and there'd be times where i feel that "God can wait", since He's always there. no doubt, God is amazingly understanding and tolerant of me, this mini tyrant and spoiled brat - and im forever grateful. but i've got to learn to grow up and out of this don't i? i cant forever take for granted God's mercy and forgiveness. what i really need to do is to put aside all that structure, all those routines and all my mindset of how God should act. i should return to the basics, the first words of the bible, "in the beginning, God...". God is the begnning, He's even the end. it's not my life anymore, it's His. so i'll learn to give it up.

my life is His, rightfully and thankfully His.(:

4:56 pm
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Friday, July 23, 2004

ok, so i fell ill. was already feelin heaty over the weekend and i struggled to back up on sunday. finally came down with fever, running nose and a sore throat which eventually became a cough on sunday night. had wanted to go back amk to see doc chong on monday... but as usual, the place was so crowded all the numbers were taken up and i had to call after 2pm. so whatever, i went to the doctor opposite the street. got a day's mc and loads of medicine. it was so funny after i downed the pills. i was sitting straight up on the sofa and started to feel so drowsy that i didnt even bother to lie down on the sofa. i jus bent over and slept with my legs still on the floor. i find it so amusing, its as if the medicine hypnotised me to sleep immediately. its been 5 days and im still coughing like a tuberculosis patient. in fact, im coughing my lungs out. not going for 5km jog tmr becus i dun wan to risk dying in the middle of the jungle with nobody to come save me. lol. 21st students' council today. oh well, as usual, i was disinterested. disinterested with anything to do with council. i think council is crap. well at least ajcouncil is crap to me. i mean, i barely see them doing anything at all. some of them i dun even see around in school. and pls lah, if u wan to be in council, can u pls make sure u do your schoolwork first? esp your groupwork. so exasperated when these councillors come into class ill-prepared for tutorials and homework with council as excuse. everything oso "sorry i got council". yah i dun deny you may be busy but commmit to schoolwork first right? poor classmates have to be dragged back and troubled each time the council decides to "bring ajc to greater heights". *dreads* and so anyway... the investiture was more than dead! reminded me so much of stnics investiture. so much more happening! aiyar anyway i didnt expect much lah. ajc what - totally expected of ajc. went down to j8 to meet jianing and titu for dinner and schoolwork. why so downcast o my soul, titu? i noe its hard... but... sigh... i dunno wad to say lah. i jus feel bu zhi for u that here u are crying and hurting over him and he's there xiao yao kuai huo immediately. stayed out with jianing to do schoolwork till 10.30... we were exploding with frustrated over limits. ~~limits~~. ugh... jus couldnt get the answer. saw her cousin, she's quite a pretty face and nice person it seems. singapore but speaks good chinese k! not like us, one piece here one piece there, still rojak with english malay and hokkien. *cough cough* *sniff sniff*

11:38 pm
mayhemisphere;
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Saturday, July 10, 2004

Jesus i am thirsty
wouldnt You come and fill me
earthly things have left me dry
only You can satisfy
all i want is more of You

10:19 am
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Tuesday, July 06, 2004

oh wells. bloodshed for math common test. got an F this time... econs mcq isnt all that fantastic either. well i'll jus brace myself to go face the battle in sch. got no one else to blame other than myself for this. didnt prepare myself fully. will jus haf to strive again next time. suddenly lotsa stuff to complete, its kinda mind-boggling. but i noe i'll get it over with. peedubew... i hate peedubew. lol. stuff to get done
1. peedubew articles/~~gpf~~
2. ~~history tutorials 9 and 10~~
3. ~~math tutorial 10~~
4. clear cupboard to store christian books

10:44 pm
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Sunday, July 04, 2004

living the t.a is over. God was faithful. like wad pastor said, he'd spend any amount jus to save one soul. so i think we should learn from him. its worth all the trouble, all the heartaches, headaches, exhaustion and frustration jus to save those souls. now that we're over that, we've got to work on keeping those souls and growing those spirits. its a tremendous spiritual responsibility, i realize. its almost as if what i felt when i first wrote a christian song. putting songs into the hearts of worshippers to sing. its a great spiritual responsibility. but we can't be crying babes all the time. we've got to rise up and answer to God's call. but pastor chris was fantastic. all those jokes and lameness aside, he makes a lot of sense in what he's speaking about! yes im gonna lead a life of revelation, reconciliation, restorations and rewards. woo-hoo! no more regrets, rejects, repeats and certainly no ruins! my life is complete with Jesus! oh i rejoice i rejoice!!

9:42 pm
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Thursday, July 01, 2004

euphoria. this word has been going around recently i realized. euphoria to describe euro04. euphoria from students who suddenly 'need not' study for tests due to the powercut last nite. euphoria to mark the end of common tests. well for me at least. some poor souls are still struggling in sch. thank God i dun need to. well i did what i intended to do after the cts. got the backpack ive been eyeing. cleaned and tidied up my desk. i owaes haf to do that after tests or exams, even though i dun really study at my desk. filed my worksheets and notes. will be goin down to queensway tmr with gracie and titu to get shoes. whoa. im finally gettin down to doing all these things. ive been rattling on and on forever about my sneakers. wanted to get it before the rally cus i wan to wear for rally!! :D oh this weekend's the rally im so excited! :D

1:12 am
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